The laws of gravity

So after such a great day...well, we all know the laws of gravity. What comes up must come down. And boy did it come crashing down.

After many years of badgering, my eldest daughter finally decided she was ready to get her drivers license! Woohoo.  Three days after deciding this, she was ready to sit the theory exam - and she PASSED!!!!  Now it's time to set her loose in my car - EEK!

So last night, we found an empty parking lot, and I finally got to teach my daughter how to drive a car. We spent ages going around in circles, so E could learn how to use the brake without giving me whiplash and the accelerator without lurching forward. The advantage of using a parking lot is she also got to practice pulling in and out of a parking space.  All in all, it was a great time, and maybe with a bit more practice I will be ready to let her go on the road with real traffic!

Fast forward to 2am, and I'm suddenly wide awake again. I hate it when that happens.  And of course, my mind started ticking over and over, and it hit me - what if I don't get a chance to teach my other daughter to drive.  She is only a few months away from being able to get her learners permit too.  What if I don't get to experience the joy of watching her behind the wheel of the car for the first time, or help her create the same memories of hysterical laughter that I got with my mother, and E got with me.  It was upsetting me so much that I seriously contemplated waking her up in the middle of the night to take her out for her first lesson, right then and there.

The enormity of this whole situation is mind boggling.  It's not like a quick operation and I'll be fixed, or an illness that will take a week or two to get over.  This is going to effect me AND my entire family for years!  And yes, it will make us all the better for it, and yes, we'll all be stronger because of it, but bloody hell.  I was HAPPY with the way we were and the life we had!

And before I knew it, morning was here and everyone was getting up to start their day.  Time to put on my happy face again and get through another day.  Only 4 more days until I head to the city and finally get started on fighting this crap out of me.